At the Log Decomposition Site in the H.J. Andrews Experimental Forest, a Visitation

Derek Sheffield

I might break, I might disappear.  

—Peter Sears (1937 – 2017)

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Below thick moss and fungi and the green leaves 

and white flowers of wood sorrel, where folds 

of phloem hold termites and ants busily gnawing 

through rings of ancient light and rain, this rot

is more alive, says the science, than the tree that

for four centuries it was. Beneath beetle galleries 

vermiculately leading like lines on a map 

to who knows where, all kinds of mites, bacteria, 

Protozoa, and nematodes whip, wriggle, and crawl 

even as my old pal’s bark of a laugh comes back:

“He’s so morose you get depressed just hearing 

his name,” he said once about a poet we both liked.

Perhaps it’s the rust-red hue of his cheeks

in the spill of woody bits. Or something in the long shags

of moss draping every down-curved limb. He’d love to be

right now a green-furred Sasquatch tiptoeing

among the boles of these firs alive since the first

Hamlet’s first soliloquy. He’d be in touch, 

he said in an email, as soon as the doctors cleared him. 

When this tree toppled, the science continues, its death 

went through the soil’s mycorrhizae linking the living 

and the dead by threads as fine as the hairs appearing 

those last years along Peter’s ears, and those rootlets 

kept rooting after. That email buried in my Inbox. 

Two lines and his name in lit pixels on my screen. 

What if I click Reply? That’s what he would do, 

even out of place and time, here in the understory’s

lowering light where gnats rescribble their whirl

after each breath I send. 

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DEREK SHEFFIELD’s collection, Not for Luck, was selected by Mark Doty for the Wheelbarrow Books Poetry Prize. Read More


Derek Sheffield’s poem “At the Log Decomposition Site…” was previously published in Not for Luck (MSU Press, 2021) and is reprinted here by permission of the author.

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